I’m not going to go ahead and say that I have a lot of confidence in myself, and yeah it kills me on a daily basis. I try really fucking hard to change it, and it just never works. 

Today Jessica, Becca and I went shopping in town in search for pretty things to wear for the summer. We were trying on a bunch of dresses, minding our own business, you know. And me, being typical Kristie… I said something along the lines of “I don’t know why I’m bothering with this, only tiny skinny people look good in these types of clothes. I just can’t wear this.” like right when we got into the dressing room. So the three of us leave our rooms to show each other our dresses, and the girl in the dressing room next to me walks out in just her bra and little flimsy shorts, not even trying anything on, staring at her skinny frail fake-tanned self. That just pissed me off. 

Then we were back in our rooms and I tried on a dress that would have looked okay except that my boobs were too big for it (hence, skinny girl dresses…) and since my friends’ rooms were far away and I can have no filter when I decide I don’t like someone so I basically yelled “I’m not coming out because this is like, a skinny girl dress, and I have boobs and those two things apparently don’t go together. Oh well, at least I have boobs”. 

They deserved it. And it’s not like I was lying, that girl could’ve been a boy with long beachy hair.

I guess I was trying on a dress that apparently that girl tried on earlier, and it actually looked really great on me. When the girls were leaving they walked past me while I was showing my friends the dress, and the girl’s friend says to her WHILE SHE WAS RIGHT FUCKING NEXT TO ME “That dress looked way better on you” and then they scurried out. She could’ve said it to my face, it’s not like they weren’t right next to me. I can handle myself, I would’ve told her off. And seriously, that had to be a complete lie. Her “boobs” must have been swimming in that dress.

I ended up buying the dress, because fuck them.

If you’re that one friend that has too much of an ego to act like a fucking friend for once in your goddamn silly, fake, conceited life, I hope you enjoy all that shit. I hope you enjoy losing friends every day because you’re too concentrated on finding new ways to broadcast yourself. I hope you enjoy keeping friends around for a week before you have to find a new group because it doesn’t take long for a person of sub-par intelligence to figure out that you’re fake bitch. 

Have a nice lifeeee <3 :)

Or more suiting to your taste, just keep ihadagoodnight.com up and running, will you?

How dare you say my name. If I’m dead to you, so let it be. But keep my name out of your fucking mouth.

I want you to die.

There’s always something to learn, remember that. You are not perfect, and you’re far from the best. This world is competitive, so I recommend you pull your head out of your ass and look around.

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FUCK YOU. You get none of the gold stars.